I give up. I found out he has a wife and two kids. He has a wonderful life and I don’t want to ruin it. dskj;lglkdsjhlkdsjg I am so fucking crushed. I’m hurt more than I should be. 

I walked into his office today for a short interview, but I couldn’t focus on the topic as my eyes were too drawn to his. At the end of the interview, I was still lost in his eyes. He asked me if I was ok, “大丈夫？” My cheeks blushed as I looked away. 

“イヌイ先生・・・ I’m graduating next week.. and I thought I should let you know.. that I really like you..” 

His face gave a confused look, as I turned around and proceeded to leave his office. “Wait,” he said. I froze, facing the door. I could hear him walk over from his desk to where I was standing. My heart raced, and I had not dared to face him. I felt his hands slowly reach around as he caressed me from behind. I felt the strong warmth of his body pressing against my back. His crotch was warm as he pressed it against my virgin ass. He licked my neck and whispered in my ear, “僕もすきだよ。” (I like you too.) 

He turned me around and kissed me. I woke up realizing it was just a dream.

After a couple of months since our first encounter, I had learned his name and his job at the school. I saw him around occasionally as I melted in his presence. I was becoming more and more infatuated with him.

As I was returning the attendance sheets to the mail room, I slipped a note I had written into his mailbox. It was the Friday before Valentines, and I hope it made him happy that day. It read, “イヌイ先生、あなたのことが好きです” which translates to I really like you. Just as I had slipped it into his box, he came into the mail room. He quickly grabbed the note and began to leave with a surprised and confused look in his eyes, unaware that I had been the one to place the note there. He gave a little smile as he left the room.

I had just transferred to this school, beginning my fourth and last year as a senior. It was during the first weeks of school, and I had just applied to work as an ‘Attendance Office Aide.’ The clerk accepted me and had already assigned me a handful of tasks. My first task was to deliver all the attendance sheets to the teachers’ mailboxes.

I set on my way to the mail room and just when I opened the door, I saw him. He was the most beautiful creature I had ever seen. Time seemed to have slowed for that moment as our eyes connected and a spark had occurred inside me. His eyes were a sparkling, dark black while his skin contrasted a very, smooth, cream tone. I knew I was already in love, but as his eyes broke apart from mines, I quickly regained consciousness and continued along my duty. 

This was our first encounter.